So, clinical test week is done. I passed. I did not make a fool of myself except when I got my finger stuck in the plastic mannequin used to practice the prostate exam. Arthritic knuckles can be a problem in unusual ways…I will leave the description of that incident out, I think you get the picture.
35 people milling around trying to get signed off on various stations was interesting. In every crowd there are people who are in a hurry, and don’t care who is in their way. The rest of us watched in amazement as a small group pushed and shoved their way around, trying to get ahead. There was plenty of time, everybody would get through the tests. What was the flying hurry? Did it mean anything that they were disruptive to other folks? I hope that they realize before they get to see patients that that isn’t the way to deal with people.
Having completed this week of learning advanced health assessment skills, casting, suturing, removal of foreign objects from ears, etc. I now know a little more, and could probably sew up a small laceration without killing someone. But the point that really hit home is how little I really know. Having been a nurse for mucho years, you start to feel somewhat knowledgable and wise. But, now, it feels like starting all over again. The instructor said we need to treat our preceptors at the clinical sites like they are God, dispensing their knowledge to us. I definitely see her point. Hopefully, I will get good preceptors that enjoy teaching, who are willing to help me learn. A person could never know enough to be perfect at the job of primary care. I suspect I will be learning new stuff every day for the rest of my career. The plan is not to get so cocky that I don’t recognize when I am wrong, or need more knowledge to safely and effectively treat a patient who needs my help. The plan is also to remember all of this when a future student FNP needs me to teach them what I have learned.
The curve is a little steep right now, I hope it will eventually level off and I start to feel comfortable in my skills again.